Friday, March 13, 2009

Take responsibility

Sometimes when you are wondering why you aren't getting anywhere, you want to make an excuse - and too often you do. And in this case, I'd love to say that it is just me making an excuse, but it's not. It is a reason. Work sucks right now. And every now and then you get a day dropped in your lap like a meteor into the Cretaceous.

Yesterday I get up at 5am to go and have a morning training session for BJJ. No one shows. I wander back to where I parked and get changed into my work clothes in an underground carpark at 6:20 in the morning. Not a great start to the day. I then manage to spend 12 hours at work - somehow not going completely mad in the process, despite spending 3 hours in meetings. Finally I get home at nearly 8pm. Some 14 hours plus since I left home. Neither my wife or I can be bothered cooking when we arrive home and didn't have any back-up plan, so we order pizza, eat it, feel like shit and then go to bed.

That, is not a day that is great for weight-loss. But with the exception of missing training that has been a fairly accurate represenation of many of my days of late. Long hours, rarely at home and eating shit because you're too tired to do anything good. My job is sedentary. And no matter how many times you walk to the printer, it's just not what the body needs. You can try and get out at lunchtime for a quick walk, but it is usually barely enough to get you through the day. And with the training session you were counting on being mysteriously vacant from your schedule then - we'll, you're fucked is the long and the short of it.

But then you have to take responsibility some time. Did I have to order pizza? No. I could have made something - but I chose not to. Could I have gone out and done some other excercise at the end of the day? Yes. But again, I chose not to.

So I'm structuring a new plan.

Each day I'll have a set number of tasks which I must complete before going to bed. This will include not just excercise but also basic household chores etc to make sure that at the very least our weekends aren't spent catching up on laundry and dishes left over from the week. I'll also go back to keeping a food diary as a "second thought"/"guilt inducing" method of keeping track of what's going in.

Weekly, I'll be posting updates on my progress as well as no doubt raving about how much I hate it.

But as I said at the very start. I've got to do it. And this isn't something that you can delegate. And I'm sick of procrastinating.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

It's not the heat - well, actually yes. Yes, it is the heat.

Is there anything that motivates you less to get up and train than having a night of little to no sleep as the temperature has resolved to not dip below 25 overnight, there's no breeze and you know that it's forecast to hit the mid to high 30s or worse again that day? You're already sweaty and tired, so why should you be bothered to get up and and add dehydrated and even sweatier and more tired to that list?

It's just not an enjoyable experience training when it's really hot. Sure, sometimes the inspiration will just hit you and you'll really feel like going for a run, or doing some other workout - but for the most part, especially when it gets really hot, your body and mind will both be telling you to ignore it all, go somewhere nice and airconditioned and just relax. I know that's how it is for me.

Yesterday I ran headlong into the other issue associated with training in hot weather - dehydration. Despite downing nearly 2L of water over the course of a one and a half hour session I'd dehydrated myself badly enough that my skin had lost much of it's elasticity and I split my middle finger open along one side while carrying my bag back from training (the simple act of fingers rubbing together did this). The severe dehydration also made itself known through the other side-effects of reduced cognitive function and motor skills as well as very dry eyes and other symptoms.

After an experience along those lines it's easy to say: "bugger that", and simply put off any training until it's not as hot, but the fact of the matter is that once you find an excuse to skip one session, you'll find it easier and easier to come up with more along the track.

I know that I'll often think about not training or search for reasons not to go, and it takes a conscious effort to over-ride such thoughts and recover the motivation. For everyone reason that you can think of not to go, try and think of a reason why you should. Most of the time you'll run out of reasons not to go far before you run out of the reasons to go.

And if you do crack and skip a session of training for whatever reason - make up for it somehow. Even if you do something that isn't as intense or as long, make sure that you still do something. I've found that inertia is my biggest friend on the training path - as long as you can keep on doing something, it makes it easier to keep on doing the right thing.

Friday, January 16, 2009

You've got to sprawl before you can walk.

Well, I'm now about a fortnight and seven lessons into my Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu experience, training with Ben Hall at Carlson Gracie Jiu-Jitsu Australia and I'm covered in bruises, have a sore throat from being choked and am generally sore all over from the workout. Because, contrary to what some people will say - it is a workout. Especially if you are like me; after all it takes a lot more effort to bridge or switch when you are built like the Michelin Man.

I've watched a lot of MMA and I've watched BJJ competitions, instructionals and seminars before, so I am reasonably familiar with the theories of BJJ. But the practice was a whole other animal. You have to retrain your body to move in ways which seem completely alien initially, but soon the inherent advantage of these motions becomes clear and you wonder how you ever rolled over in bed or scooted under a desk to check something without doing it this way. To use some slightly elaborate terminology - it's a whole new set of grammatical rules for your body language to follow. You have to understand the new cause and effect relationships for every movement that you make. And make no mistake, it's hard to unlearn some of the things that you do without thinking.

Already I've learnt some important lessons - the biggest one being an insight into controlling an opponent through your own behaviour. The lesson was focused on keeping the guard when your opponent is standing and looking to pass. For a while it was just confusing and despite the occassional (wholly accidental at the time) success, it usually ended with Ben's knee firmly planted in my solar plexus. Then it came time to swap positions and after a few failed attempts Ben asked me the question: "How did I know that you were going to try to grab that leg?"
"Because I'd been watching it."
"That's only a part of it. I knew you'd go for that leg, because I'd put my other leg out of your reach."

With that simple revelation I felt like I jumped way above my previous skill level. Sure, there had been a lot of useful advice before and since, such as: "Don't extend an arm too far or you'll get armbarred", "Don't put just one arm in, you'll get triangled", but this advice gave my experience a whole new clarity. For the rest of the lesson I was feeling much more confident, I now understood what had been meant by the statement "You have to control your opponent no matter what, and the best way to do this is to control what options they have."

It's a lesson which I put to use in a later class doing takedown drills. By playing "big dumb lug" (when in fact, I am merely a big lug), and leaving a leg too far forward or something similar, I could be confident that my opponent would take that opportunity. After all, that's the only option I had given them. Each and every time as it turned out, the person would go for what I'd given them - and most of the time because I knew what to expect, I was able to do what I'd planned. Sure, there were a few times where someone did something I'd never seen before - but damnit, they did it to the limb that I knew they would.